Step We Are On: Five
Page: 73
Chapter: 6 “Into Action”
Subject: Discussing ourselves with another person.
Read Time: 1 min.
Good morning. Once someone pursuing this spiritual recovery method called The Twelve Steps has taken Steps Three and Four, putting the Program of "Alcoholics Anonymous" to the test, they are ready to go into action.
Today the co-authors are talking about the contradiction between what an alcoholic knows about himself and how he wants others to see him - the gross disparity between a self-image he projects to the outside world and his true stature. His real “esteem” (his true personal, moral net worth) is considerably lower than the esteem (valuation) he “advertises” to others. It hurts.
Page: 73
Chapter: 6 “Into Action”
Subject: Discussing ourselves with another person.
Read Time: 1 min.
Good morning. Once someone pursuing this spiritual recovery method called The Twelve Steps has taken Steps Three and Four, putting the Program of "Alcoholics Anonymous" to the test, they are ready to go into action.
Today the co-authors are talking about the contradiction between what an alcoholic knows about himself and how he wants others to see him - the gross disparity between a self-image he projects to the outside world and his true stature. His real “esteem” (his true personal, moral net worth) is considerably lower than the esteem (valuation) he “advertises” to others. It hurts.
- Does drinking make him feel better or worse about himself?
The inconsistency is made worse by the things he does on his sprees.
- Once the anesthetic, numbing value of alcohol begins to wear off and he is detoxing, how does he feel?
Coming to his senses, he is revolted at certain episodes he vaguely remembers.
- What are these memories to him?
These memories are a nightmare.
- Is he afraid he may have been exposed?
He trembles to think someone might have observed him.
- What does he do with these memories?
As fast as he can, he pushes these memories far inside himself.
Repression and suppression of the truths about how we live and about events that might add resentment – for ourselves and others - are tools of the guilty to help maintain the false esteem of an elevated “Self”.
Really now, is there anyone more dishonest than a guilt-ridden, God separated individual with a need to feel that they are still the human being they wish they were, rather than the one they are becoming?
Unrecovered alcoholics are phony, lying fools. And every dishonest person with a conscience feels the rub within. He becomes obsessed with evading the pain.
Here the conveniently "forgotten," consequences of the last drinks lead to an obsessive future guaranteeing more "first" drinks and sprees to come.
Peace and Love,
Danny S – RLRA
Real Live Recovered Alcoholic
http://stepelevencomesalive.blogspot.com
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